“couples” — heraclitus the obscure

© Bridgeman Education

© Bridgeman Education

Heraclitus of Ephesus (c.535-c.475 BC).

(from fragment 10)
Couples are things whole and not whole, what is drawn together and what is drawn asunder, the harmonious and discordant. The one is made up of all things, and all things issue from the one.


my son’s 30th birthday gift

the earth has gone around the sun exactly 30 times since the day my son hunter was born, almost 6 times since he completed his mission for this life cycle and left again. from the first moment i laid eyes on him i recognized him as my departed brother, but i did not understand his mission until he’d left again. i had thought, self-centeredly, that he had returned to be with me. no, he needed to work through his relationship with our father. and the evening before his 30th birthday, as i was feeling very close with hunter, loving him and feeling his love being returned to me, i could feel him trying to help -me- work through my own issues with our father. dad called sparky (my brother) “the most forgivingest young’n i’ve ever known.” hunter was trying to share that attitude with me last evening. for the sake of my brother, my son, for the sake of our father, and for my own sake, i hope “child is father to the man” is able to get through to me and help me learn forgiveness… thank you hunter: i love you son. may brother, son, and father rest in peace ~~

medical report on your blog host…

today i am enjoying being tired! i went to bed early, woke up late, and then took a nap. and this is a very good thing! why? on monday and tuesday of this week i began treatments for my lymphoma again: yay!!! i had three infusions of two different kinds of chemo over two days. almost six years ago they stopped giving me the more toxic kind of chemo, designed actually to put the cancer into remission, for fear of killing me. a body can take only so much! i’d had that much, and the cancer wasn’t gone… so they gave me rituxan for five years, which is not toxic chemo but rather an antibody that managed the cancer without attempting to cure it, and kept me alive though my cancer is active and “incurable.” nearly a year ago, they took away the rituxan — said my body needed a break from that, too. the cancer sure appreciated the break! it just kept getting more and more active… SO! now that my body has had it’s break, time to break the cancer!!! the original plan this time had been one treatment with bendamustine every three weeks for six cycles, then maybe rituxan. that was what my doctor told me last week. when i got to the hospital monday morning for treatment – after my doctor had consulted with a nationally known hematologist expert – the rituxan was begun immediately (not “maybe”) and the bendamustine plan was doubled! two treatments every three weeks for six cycles! i’m so pleased!!! grateful!!! haven’t been this happy to be this tired in forever….. :)